Sebastian has three lovers

Moran/Brooks

Moran/Moriarty

Seb/Jim

a short crazy thing written at 5 am. I’m not even sorry right now.

Sex with Jim was always different. He hated having sex with him when he was Brooks. Sebastian hated Richard. He was whiny and cried for him to stop. Begged him while taking him in till the hilt, spread out like a slut. The first time he cried like that, Seb stopped. Next day when he woke up with a gun pointed in his face, he realized his mistake. This was all a big sexy role play… Only it wasn’t sexy. Or kinky. It was rape. And it wasn’t really Jim. But Moriarty commanded him to fuck Richard. And he did.

Sebastian comes only after he’s done with Brooks and the man is curled up in a ball crying. He locks himself in the bathroom and thinks of Jim. He has to switch on the water to silence the sobbs. Sometimes he just takes a cold shower.

When he’s having sex with Moriarty, not Jim, it’s different, the man rides him, strikes him, suffocates him. They use sex toys and wips, sometimes he faints from being strangled too hard. This is never good, and he looses his most recent memories because of it. And Moriarty is angry and unsatisfied. He just leaves him tied to the bed, and goes away. Sometimes he doesn’t come back for days. And when he’s back he’s usually not Moriarty already.

Jim is the one who makes Sebastian tolerate the other two. Because Jim is perfect. He is crazy, no doubt. But just the right ammount. Jim laughs. This is the best thing about him. The other two never do it. Sometimes he can even tickle him without getting hit on the head. Jim is the one who can give him lazy kisses as well as passionate breathtaking ones, Jim even sucks him off (Moriarty would never do it and Brooks chockes and is bad with the teeth). And he calls him “Seb.”

But at the grave Sebastian is drinking for all three of them. Because no matter how much he could try and deny it - he loved them. And he hoped at least Jim loved him back.